Genre: Nonfiction/Christian/Grief & Loss
Formats: Paperback and Ebook
E-Cover By: RaeBeth McGee-Buda
Paperback Cover: Marcy Rachel
Editor: Lee Ryder
Date Published: October 15, 2013
The journey of pregnancy brings hope, joy, and love for the expecting mother. The hope of giving birth to a new life. The joy of feeling this new life grow inside of her. The love that starts with a test that doesn’t ever end. Dreams for the unborn child flood the new mother’s mind, as well as those around her. Each step of the pregnancy is a cherished moment. The anticipation of meeting her cherished baby builds from the very first month and ends after birth. This is the story of one mother and how a few words changed her life forever. How a piece of her faded when she heard these words: “There’s no heartbeat.” When RaeBeth Buda laid in the hospital in labor, she and her husband heard those dreaded words. What happens when all of those dreams are shattered in a moment’s notice? How does one cope with the loss of their child? This is the story of their journey and of the devastating grief of the loss of her daughter, Dakota Emily Buda.
Shortly after our perfectly imperfect wedding, my husband and I headed off to our honeymoon. We were thrilled. It seemed like things were finally falling into place. He had a great job and we were happy. The honeymoon was amazing. We decided to take a trip to the Pocono’s for the most amazing time at the most beautiful and entertaining resort we could find...Pocono Palace. I felt like a princess. We overly enjoyed our honeymoon. We took walks, played games in the game room, and made some memories would will last a lifetime.
Of course our honeymoon went by too quickly and after two weeks, we headed home. I was glad to though because I was missing my daughter. She’s an amazing little girl who has one heck of a sense of humor. She brightens our world. There’s not a day that goes by where she doesn’t make us laugh or make our hearts melt. Her personality is amazing and her outlook on the world is impressive.
Let me introduce to you our princess, Emma. She’s our world, our breath that we breathe, and we love her more than life itself. She’s a daddy’s girl and isn’t your typical little child. She loves to get down and dirty with her daddy when working on cars, but won’t hesitate to spend the day getting her nails painted with Mommy.
When we got back from our honeymoon, life went back to the way it was. Emma started first grade and Greg went back to work. I had a book I needed to finish writing. I tried so hard to finish this book but out of the blue, I started to get sick. My stomach would hurt and I was exhausted. Several weeks went by and I didn’t seem to be getting any better.
Then it came to me, I might be pregnant.
Goodness gracious,I don't know how RaeBeth wrote this book.It must have taken much strength to get through it because it had me crying for most of the story.I don't usually read non~fiction books but when RaeBeth announced she was writing Dakota's story I was eager to read it. I was on facebook that day and remember all to well getting the notification about Dakota.We all said out condolences and tried to give encouraging words knowing we couldn't possibly understand their pain.Prayer were sent up for this lovely family who was in so much pain.I have watch RaeBeth this past few months and has been amazed at her faith.It gives me strength to her holding on to the Lord so hard after going through worst than I have ever gone through and knowing if she can persevere in light of such a loss then surely I can preserve through my hardships that can't even compare to hers.It was an honor to read through her journey and believe those who have such a loss as this would gain strength by reading it and those who haven't had this experience would gain a glimpse of what Angel Parents go through and would be encouraged to love each day thankful for what they have.And also know whatever we go through,if we lean on God He will get us through. (The night after I read Saying Goodbye Without Saying Hello,I woke up early in the morning with this on my mind.) I don't for one minute think that God orchestrated her passing,that claim belongs solely to Satan But he didn't win because God took her soul to Heaven and she is in His arms enjoying love,peace and joy that Satan can only dreaming of never having. Satan wanted to break RaeBeth but apparently he forgot the verse: All things work together for the good of those who love the Lord, to then who are called unto His purpose Romans 8:28. RaeBeth may have been down for the count from such a blow but he did not break her,he did not destroy her as he sought to do.No the Victory belongs to God and RaeBeth. She is resilient,she stomped on Satan's head and put him under her feet where he belongs. I believe everyone who reads this book,Dakota's blog,the reviews for the book,and her facebook page will be touched by the Light of God that shines through RaeBeth. I also pray and believe God will give them their Rainbow baby.
About the Author:
RaeBeth McGee-Buda was born in southwestern Pennsylvania in 1987, the second daughter of Rachel Yost and Arthur Curtis McGee. RaeBeth grew up loving to read and write poetry, as well as short stories. Her childhood dream was to become a teacher. Rae Beth's dream of writing was created in her eleventh grade literature class where writing became her passion. RaeBeth married in August 2012 to her husband, Gregory Stephen Buda Jr. and resides in a small Pennsylvania town of Fairchance. RaeBeth is a full time mother of one beautiful little girl and a mother to an angel in heaven as of May 27th, 2013. She graduated from American Intercontinental University in 2010 with her associates in business administration. She enjoys spending her time writing and feels that connecting with readers is her main goal.